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Ohtori and Gakuto-san, I'm going to be doing your belt test next week. I'll send you a list of what will be expected so you can practice if you want, but everything on it I'm confident you both already know. It will have to be scheduled around our shifts, so please tell me when you'll be free next week so I can work out a time.

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I just didn't even get alone time though. Barely slept alone, didn't really shower alone all that often, didn't eat alone... It's been a lot. Like it was tempting to just book myself into iso to get away from it all for a bit.

Do you enjoy that you can pick him up?

Do you know what boundaries are? Because it sounds like you need to set some.

.......yes. Why.

Two boyfriends is just... A lot. And then now I'm worrying because they're fretting because I told them I was overwhelmed by it all and urgh. I need to talk to them both but like, after Kippei is better.

No just wondering. Like it seems to make Jin weirdly smug when he threatens to just pick me up and drop me on a bed to make me sleep.

There's a reason most people stick with one. You'll work past it, they both got into it knowing you were a difficult person from the start, just be clear when you tell them what you need and don't lie about it.

You're giving me a headache.

Yeah, I kind of told them already. I might have to punch Kippei a bit so he figures out that he can be normal around me, just give me space when I need it. Jin suggested having like Wednesday be my alone day or something so I constantly recharge. Do you need recharge days?

Haha sorry sorry. Just realising some things.

I spend most of my shifts alone or mostly alone, I get plenty of time to myself. A set day to yourself sounds good for you, that way it's scheduled like you like it.

Things like what?

Do you ever tell Gakuto that you need time alone? Or does he tell you? And how does that get taken?

That I'm an idiot who pushed himself too hard.

It hasn't come up. I don't know if you've noticed, but Gakuto-san is attention starved.

Pushing yourself too hard is your natural state of being.

I'm not really concerned about gakuto, I'm concerned about you. Make sure you tell him if it's too much, okay?

Hahahaha it's getting harder now though. I swear everyone is conspiring to make sure I sleep and take breaks.

If you care about me, you care about Gakuto-san by default. And I'm fine.

If you'd regulate your own breaks better you wouldn't have to deal with people meddling with yours. Meeting them halfway on your own terms is better than them forcing their ideas on you again when your health slips.

Sure. Caring about him in the context of your happiness and satisfaction.

I mean, I doubt they could actually force ideas on me. They should all know that's more likely to make me not do it.

That's a start.

When I say 'forcing their ideas' I mean locking you up in iso and sedating you again.

He's fine. I try not to talk to him much.

........ That is a horrifying thought. Also because yagyuu would totally be here for it, he's already threatening me with nutrient IV bags if I don't eat

I noticed. You're getting along better now, I appreciate it.

Right. So fix your bad habits yourself before they get fixed for you.

... sure.

It's difficult. I really like some of my bad habits.

Interacting with people means compromise. Everyone does it.

I'd be like 'i could go back to being alone' but... I don't know if I could

Would you want to?

... I don't know. It was certainly much easier. This whole caring about people is quite tiring

The easiest paths aren't always the more rewarding ones.

Gosh you're just so knowledgeable sometimes

I can't tell if you're making fun of me again.

I'm not. I'm terribly fond of you and your good advice

Just checking.

... are you feeling OK?

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